When I started on the path to recovery, I did not have a very thankful attitude. In fact, I wanted to throw myself a pity party everyday and sit at the head of the table. What was there to be grateful for? As I look back over the course of the last year and a half, I can clearly see so many things I have to be thankful for. I am not really sure when it all clicked. Somewhere along the way, I crossed over a bridge from the side of sickness to the side of recovering/recovery. That is when I could finally see how far I had come. Here are the 11 things that I discovered I am truly grateful for in recovery:
1. I am not completely depleted and wiped out everyday, I actually have “normal people” energy.
2. I have gained SO much more time each day. Time that was wasted on my sickness before, I now have to use for greatness!
3. Instead of pushing my daughters closer to the illness as they get older, I am a positive role model. We have an open line of communication about eating disorders and body image, and they know my past and current struggles.
4. Margaritas!!!!!! 😉
5. There are so many other people that are just like me, the struggle is REAL. I had a hard time believing this, even when I was in treatment with other girls “claiming” to have the same issues. I still felt different from them. Recovery has taught me differently. Our stories are all different, but our underlying struggles are so much the same.
6. I CAN function without a scale and without knowing the number that it reads everyday (or twice a day).
7. People are extremely understanding. I was so terrified to let the words come out of my mouth the first time I told anyone about my eating disorder. I really thought folks would be thoroughly disgusted and appalled. I am so thankful that I have learned the exact opposite is true. If only I had known that years ago…
8. I had no clue how many resources and outlets were out there…I find more and more everyday. Blogs, Websites, Instagram and Tumblr accounts…I am inspired and motivated by so many others that share everyday.
9. I am seriously grateful for the extra money that I have now! Yep, the money that I wasted everyday on food and other things to satisfy my eating disorder.
10. More time with my friends and family. Instead of sending calls to voicemail, or avoiding social situations to spend quality time with my eating disorder, I actually pursue opportunities to “just talk” or “hang out”. Yes, even when I am having a difficult body image day, I am more likely to push through it and show up. So many lost moments over the years…but, I am finding new ones! 🙂
11. There is no such thing as perfect.